October 14, 2017
Though the fig tree should not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will take joy in the God of my salvation. – Habakkuk 3:17-18 (ESV)
I’m just not seeing it. I’m just not seeing what I was expecting. I was expecting good things. I was expecting prosperity. I look around me and all I see is lack. I tried hard. I invested a lot of myself. I did the right things and made the right moves. Nevertheless, things have not panned out. I have no fig trees, but my investments failed to blossom. I have no vines, but my business bore no fruit. Does not the Lord see what is happening to me? Does He not care about me anymore?
I try, but I just can’t figure it out. I just don’t understand. It’s a mystery. It’s a mystery that I have not solved and, so it seems, have no hope of solving. The mystery is that some of the great and mighty promises of God have not been fulfilled in my life. I can’t see the reason for the delay. I can’t see any reasons at all. Maybe there are reasons, but I can’t see them. I’ve asked the Lord to give me some understanding about it, but I have nothing so far. On this issue, I get nowhere with my prayers.
Many people in my position would give up on God. After all, so they seem to think, why serve a God who doesn’t come through for you? Why serve a God if it doesn’t make any difference? I, on the other hand, can’t go that way. I can’t give up on God. It’s like Job said, “Though he slay me, I will hope in him.” (Job 13:15). Though I can’t see the fulfillment of the promises, at least not yet, I’m not going to give up on Him. How can I give up on the only God that actually exists?
Indeed, I’m going to take it one step further. I’m going to rejoice in the Lord. I’m going to take joy in Him. I’m going to cheer myself up despite the hardships.
If I do, I know that sooner or later the God of my salvation will come through for me. Sooner or later, He will show Himself strong on my behalf.